Monday, August 15, 2005

first overnight guests in new apartment

More than a few years ago, Tim's family was host to a German foreign exchange girl. Since that time, that whole family has made an annual trip to America to see us and also visit several other places around the country. This is the first time that they came and Tim and I weren't in Oklahoma anymore. Saturday afternoon, Tim's parents and the girl and her brother arrived. They stayed the night and stayed Sunday night also, then the German parents joined us today briefly for a quick visit to a park (where the ducks and geese are so tame that they will eat out of your hands) then we went out to eat.

While we were waiting for our table, I noticed that my left eye seemed to be doing better. I covered my right eye and could see things way across the way. Today was the first time that eye had been clear since before my last appointment on July 20th. It still comes and goes but mostly comes now. Hopefully it will stay fairly clear from here on out. I was a little worried that I would need an enhancement. Not because of the surgery in general, but because I live so far away now that I would probably have to take a week off work to have followup appointments, and then still go back a month later for followup, etc. When I had it done the first time, I had a LOT of followup appointments, pretty much every other day. I don't have enough time off to do that again.

We got word on Tim's car and they fixed it, but all 8 of the valves were bent so all 8 had to be replaced. So it was about $150 more than the estimate. No worries though. We will be taken care of. Tim's parents gave us some garage sale money for the things of ours that they either kept or are going to sell sometime down the road. So that will definitely help us out. But all through the weekend we were still a one-car family. I was able to use his parents' van for a few things I needed to do this weekend since Tim had to work and needed the car for that. Plus when we were all together too, they "let" me chauffer them around since they didn't know their way around the city. It was neat to drive their van. I was used to a much smaller car but did pretty well with the big truck-ish vehicle.

Charting is going well. So far I have remembered to take my temperature. This week I am more nervous than last week though. This week I am REALLY off the pill. It's kindof exciting. I can't wait until we can TTC.

Thursday, August 11, 2005

fixing a car and a delay of plans

Well I have a bit of bad news today. DH's car kindof died on Tuesday. It died about 100 yards from home so we were able to get it into a parking spot, but it wouldn't start. When you turn the key to "start", it would just make a high whine. Kindof like if you turn on the blender with nothing in it.

So we call around and find someone to look at the car and we get it towed out there early yesterday morning. The immediate issue was the timing belt. It snapped, so that caused the dying. Another potential issue was that the valves could have bent but they wouldn't know any more until they put a new timing belt back on. So we called them a little later and sure enough, several valves are bent.

We just don't have the money for a different car and it's going to cost quite a bit to fix it, but we looked at the budget, the checking account, the savings account, and the upcoming bills and decided to go ahead and get it fixed. It pretty much ate up all the washer/dryer fund. Being a Nissan, which has a reputation of running for a long time, I have no reason to believe that anything this major will happen to the car again anytime soon.

This is where the delays come in. Since we have to start rebuilding the W/D fund then that will of course delay our purchase of it. And I have a stash of fabric to sew into maternity clothes but about 2/3 of that is still unwashed (I pre-wash my fabric before I sew with it). I don't want to tote that to the laundromat so I need a W/D to wash it... and since it's for planned maternity clothes then I want to have my sewing done before I need it so I don't sew in a hurry and mess up and have to rip out seams, etc.

This also has the potential to delay TTC-ing. I'm still looking for January, depending on how fast we can rebuild the fund. But as soon as we get a W/D then we will have to start saving for a midwife fee which is yet to be determined for the amount. (Not covered by insurance but a homebirth is what we want).

But as of right now I am still hopeful. I just keep praying and being faithful and know that DH and I will be taken care of. These setbacks are only momentarily frustrating. The wait only briefly seems forever. And the reward at the end of the tunnel will be what I've always been waiting for. Or something like that. Didn't mean to get all philosophical there. :)

Then Tim tells me just tonight that we should go ahead and have a baby b/c we'll be so happy with the baby that it won't matter that we're broke b/c we won't care, that all we'll feel is happiness for our new addition. His head is in the clouds and deep down he really knows that we should wait. With this car thing, he knows now how important living within a budget is, and not eating out, etc. I think we will be able to stick with a budget more than ever now. But only time will tell.

Saturday, August 6, 2005

dissatisfied with job after only two months?

Well, not really dissatisfied with the job, per se, but with one particular person I work with. I prayed the other day for patience and already that helped a lot. When I first started, it didn't bother me but now I feel like she is overly bossy and loud and talks too much etc. And she is the one that is going to be there for a while. My other coworker, the sweet quiet church-going one, plans to leave next summer at the latest. :( I am sad, but maybe she will be there through the summer and hopefully if we are blessed with children when we try then I'll only be "without" her for 2 months or so. All these little mini-trials will just make me stronger. But every other single facet about my job is great. I am thankful for my blessings. Today I got to work in a different store again to help out. It's nice to have a change of scenery like that. I wasn't very busy but had spurts of 3-4 customers coming in at once. I liked it.

I've re-figured the credit card payoff scheme. I added an extra 30/month or so to just the regular payments, and also an extra 200 for each of 3 months towards the end of the year to reflect the extra paycheck we get. (Get paid biweekly and the budget is based on a 2-check month but some months we get 3 checks). And the new payoff date is September! A whole month earlier. I think we will still wait and start TTCing in January, though, just to give us that extra month of cushion and savings. Plus I might be able to pay off my car the next month. That would be very exciting. :)

I'd better go for now. I want to do some sewing this afternoon. I cut the cloth out last weekend and all week I was too tired to do anything else besides cook and dishes. It is a summery dress so I want to finish it while it's still summer. Once Labor Day hits then I won't be able to wear it to work since I'm not supposed to wear open toed shoes there, etc.

Wednesday, August 3, 2005

last week of pills

Well, this week is my last week of pills. I ordered a thermometer online last week and it came on Monday. I had to go online because all the ones I found in stores weren't sensitive enough. Taking Charge of Your Fertility recommends that it be sensitive to 1/10th of a degree. I found many that would measure to 1/10th, but when I read the fine print in the instructions manual it was only sensitive to 2/10ths. But I have the thermometer now and have "practiced" taking my temperature for a couple of days, to get into the habit of doing so.

I'm so nervous about going off the pill, but Tim understands that we shouldn't get pregnant before January. If we do it won't be the end of the world, but we just wouldn't have our debt paid off as soon as we'd like. If we don't get pregnant right away in January or February then I can pay the car off in November. (The rest of the credit cards would be paid off in October). That would be awesome because then there would be 3 more months that we could put it into savings. So exciting.

My eyes are still having troubles. My right eye is the one that can see clearly, but it is also the one that itches more than the other one. Both of them also turn red, but only red in certain areas. I'm being liberal with the eye drops and have been since my last appointment, but I just don't know what's going on. My next appointment isn't until the end of next month so I have a long wait. Hopefully my eyes will heal up (with the redness and itching at least) in another few weeks or so.

Friday, July 22, 2005

a very long day of travel

So my last followup LASIK appointment was on Wednesday. Since I live out of state now, we had to make a day of it and come down for the appointment then go back the same day. We also closed out our previous checking/savings accounts, and had lunch with his parents while we were there, which made the day very long. But at least we didn't have to stop and pay tolls since we had the Pikepass. I should have gotten one of those a long time ago.

So anyway we close out our accounts first which only takes moments. Then we are going to meet his parents at a little cafe on campus that is next to the bookstore that Tim used to work at. He rings the back doorbell making like he is going to deliver something and the door raises. He recognizes his old coworkers and says hi to everyone. One of the ladies in the office said "No babies yet??". Then when his parents caught up with us, his mom gave us a Baby Einstein video, and a book on 1,000 ways to entertain a child, or something. I asked her if she was hinting at something. :P It was just kindof funny to get all those baby comments. Especially since we decided to go ahead and go off the pill after this pack.

What? You heard me. We are still not planning a pregnancy until at the end of the year but I loaned out my first edition Taking Charge of Your Fertility to a coworker, and while she has it I checked the revised edition out of the library. It reiterated my thoughts that "this is something I can do." I talked about it with Tim on the way home and he is OK with it, too. We will have to be VERY careful though, because I really don't want to get pg before late December so that our "due date month" will hopefully correspond with our credit card payoff month and I can stay at home. :)

Oh before I forget, my eye appointment. My left eye has been giving me troubles for a couple of weeks, and they did a "map" of it when I couldn't read the appropriate line, and sure enough there is some astigmatism there again. (I'm so glad now that I got the years' worth of followup exams and the enhancement, if needed). The optometrist checked my eyes and said that the flap is still looking fine. He said that if I didn't live so far away he'd want to see me in 2 months and I said that two months is very doable. So I go back at the end of September. I'll have another update then.

Sunday, July 17, 2005

hip replacements should not be for the young

My brother in law had to have a hip replacement earlier this month. But it wasn't healing properly, so they replaced it again this past Friday and he is supposed to come home tomorrow (to Mom's house since his apartment is upstairs). I pray that his hip will heal properly this time so that he can be there for his son and be able to play with him and run and jump and do sports and football. And that he'll be able to walk well, without any trace of a limp. I pray that God will put His healing hand onto his hip so that he will become whole again. I'll have to call Mom later this week to see how he's doing.

In my bio on the Nest, I've put two countdowns. One is for trying to conceive, and one is for paying off debt. TTC will probably be at the very end of December (my last pill period will be the 27th, 28th, and 29th) and then hopefully we'll get pregnant in January. Then my paying off debt countdown is 15 or so months away. Still not just around the corner, but getting closer as each week goes by. And I can hardly believe that it is only about 15 weeks until we can get a washer and dryer. :)

Work is still going fine for both of us. Tim's part timer's last day was today, and the assistant manager he has will probably be let go at the end of summer unless some big attitude changes on his part happen. He has a positive attitude overall, but is very wishy-washy about wanting to stay with Leslie's or not. My job is fine too. I finally finished my training program, just in time, too because tomorrow we are getting more trainees in the store. It'll be fun to teach the newbies again. :)

Saturday, July 16, 2005

ow my aching head

So last month, for the first time ever in 6 years of taking the Pill, I skipped the last week and went straight to a new pack to skip my cycle for that week. But now I'm wondering if that was such a good idea. For going on 3 days now, I've been having big headaches that come and go. I remember having them before during my "off" week of pills, but nothing that I needed to take medicine for or that lasted very long. But this is the second time in 3 nights that it's been painful enough to keep me awake while I wait for medicine to kick in. I know it's not dehydration because I've been making a very conscious efford to keep enough fluids in me. There is a tiny chance that it is from the heat... I did turn the a/c up a couple of degrees in hopes of having a slightly lower electric bill next month. If the headaches continue into next week when I start my new pack then I may turn the a/c back down and see if that alleviates the pressure.

Ow ow ow ow ow ow ow ow.

Tuesday, July 12, 2005

i'm an aunt again

Woohoo! My sister had a healthy baby boy on Sunday morning. She actually went in for an induction on Friday morning, and all day Friday nothing much was happening. They let her rest overnight and started her up again on Saturday. The baby did fine through all this, and things were happening... but not fast enough for the doctor so he decided to go ahead and give her a C-section on Sunday morning. Mom called me and said that everyone is doing fine but of course my sister is plenty sore.

Since I live 8 hours away from them again I'm not sure when I'll get to meet my new nephew in person, but in the next couple of days his newborn picture should be up on the hospital's website so I can take a peek at him then. And I'll have to have Mom send me pictures as he grows, too. Can't hardly wait until it's my turn, but even TRYING to get pregnant is still several months away, and then it may take several months after that to actually conceive. I remember while I was back in Oklahoma I really REALLY wanted to hurry up and get pregnant and start my own business so I could quit my job sooner rather than later since I felt "piled on" all the time, my coworkers were constantly using bad language, etc. But with the job I have now, I still like it, and I don't think I'll come to dislike it. So it will be OK if I don't get pregnant right away when we start trying. I wouldn't be in a hurry for a countdown to my last day (I'm planning on being a SAHM). Besides as each month goes on, that is just more $$ into savings, more time to sew maternity and nursing clothes, more time to scrapbook, etc. :)

Monday, July 4, 2005

july already? where did the time go?

I came on here today and wondered if I really did make a post in June, and sure enough I did... 33 days ago. LOL. Not a whole lot has happened since that entry. We are still unpacking. I finally did a big bunch of it today and the living room looks so big now. In our old apartment I had to leave all of our "good" dishes and about half of our everyday dishes in a box, but all of that is unpacked now. Before today started, I had 4 large boxes of miscellaneous kitchen things, and I was able to find homes for most of it and now I'm left with only 1 box once I condensed it back down. I even unpacked my large cookware bits and a few large stonewares. It was hard to find homes for the larger pieces, though, because the cabinets in the kitchen are a little short and not quite deep enough for some things.

Even though children are still way in the future still, I've been reading a lot in books from the library. We still plan on having our babies at home so I've been reading up on that "family" of topics. I also still am the listkeeper on the nest for my TTC Fall/Winter group. It grows every week or so as someone else requests to be added. I've been able to share several funny stories with them over the past week or so. The first month on my list is September, and it's only 2 more months before some of those people will be able to TTC. Then the months for the rest of us will seem all that much closer. :)

Right now I'm looking forward to October, though, since that is going to be the most likely time for us to get a washer and dryer. :D Tim's mom has sold his old car for us. Not for very much, but for enough that it will greatly help the washer/dryer fund. I'm so excited. :) I love new "toys". hehehe

Youngest sis hasn't had her baby yet but is due on Thursday. She was going to have a C-section last Wednesday but the baby had turned so now she just has another appointment tomorrow to see where she's at and what they want to do.

I had a plugged salivary duct earlier last month. I'd had them before but they'd always gone away within a couple of hours but this one stayed overnight and I was hurting, so I went to a walk-in clinic. The dr used two moistened q-tips to work out the tiny stone. He had me back the next morning for a follow-up, and told me that it looked "almost normal". It kinda hurt a little but a numbing needle would have hurt more so I was glad for the little pain. :)

I also found my friend L again. I sent her an e-mail but hadn't heard from her since November so I wasn't even sure if she had the same e-mail address or not. But it turns out she did and hopefully she'll get me her address and phone number so I can give her a call and a Christmas card. :)

july already? where did the time go?

I came on here today and wondered if I really did make a post in June, and sure enough I did... 33 days ago. LOL. Not a whole lot has happened since that entry. We are still unpacking. I finally did a big bunch of it today and the living room looks so big now. In our old apartment I had to leave all of our "good" dishes and about half of our everyday dishes in a box, but all of that is unpacked now. Before today started, I had 4 large boxes of miscellaneous kitchen things, and I was able to find homes for most of it and now I'm left with only 1 box once I condensed it back down. I even unpacked my large cookware bits and a few large stonewares. It was hard to find homes for the larger pieces, though, because the cabinets in the kitchen are a little short and not quite deep enough for some things.

Even though children are still way in the future still, I've been reading a lot in books from the library. We still plan on having our babies at home so I've been reading up on that "family" of topics. I also still am the listkeeper on the nest for my TTC Fall/Winter group. It grows every week or so as someone else requests to be added. I've been able to share several funny stories with them over the past week or so. The first month on my list is September, and it's only 2 more months before some of those people will be able to TTC. Then the months for the rest of us will seem all that much closer. :)

Right now I'm looking forward to October, though, since that is going to be the most likely time for us to get a washer and dryer. :D Tim's mom has sold his old car for us. Not for very much, but for enough that it will greatly help the washer/dryer fund. I'm so excited. :) I love new "toys". hehehe

Youngest sis hasn't had her baby yet but is due on Thursday. She was going to have a C-section last Wednesday but the baby had turned so now she just has another appointment tomorrow to see where she's at and what they want to do.

I had a plugged salivary duct earlier last month. I'd had them before but they'd always gone away within a couple of hours but this one stayed overnight and I was hurting, so I went to a walk-in clinic. The dr used two moistened q-tips to work out the tiny stone. He had me back the next morning for a follow-up, and told me that it looked "almost normal". It kinda hurt a little but a numbing needle would have hurt more so I was glad for the little pain. :)

I also found my friend L again. I sent her an e-mail but hadn't heard from her since November so I wasn't even sure if she had the same e-mail address or not. But it turns out she did and hopefully she'll get me her address and phone number so I can give her a call and a Christmas card. :)